Life Ain't Always Beautiful

When it is hard to find the words to express how you feel, there is often times a song that will do it for you. This song does exactly that. I'm beginning to see the light through the darkness and I know that our family will be okay. Thanks again for every card, visit, cooked meal, sweet message, hug, and prayer. We are truly blessed to have such a wonderful support system in our lives.

Boston, you have touched so many hearts. I pray that I will always feel your spirit with me.

Wise Ole Bear

"If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together..there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart. I'll always be with you. "

-Christopher Robin to Pooh

 

When Your Seeking Anwers...

Turn to the Bible. I can not express how grateful I am for all of the love and support I have received over the past few months. To the prayer warriors, I wouldn't have made it thus far without you.

New pair of shoes

Thanks to Gail Musick Booth for sharing this with me. We will forever share a common bond. We are mothers to angel babies.

I am wearing a pair of shoes.
They are ugly shoes,
Uncomfortable Shoes,
I hate my shoes.
Each day I wear them, and each day I wish I had another pair.
Some days my shoes hurt so bad that I do not think I can take another step,
Yet I continue to wear them.
I get funny looks wearing these shoes,
They are looks of sympathy.
I can tell in others eyes that they are glad they are my shoes and not theirs.
They never talk about my shoes.
To learn how awful my shoes are might make them uncomfortable.
To truly understand these shoes you must walk in them...
But, once you put them on, you can never take them off.
I now realize that I am not the only one who wears these shoes.
There are many pairs in the world.
Some women are like me and ache daily as they try and walk in them.
Some have learned how to walk in them so they don't hurt quite as much.
Some have worn the shoes so long that days will go by
before they think of how much they hurt.
No woman deserves to wear these shoes.
Yet, because of the shoes I am a stronger women.
These shoes have given me the strength to face anything.
They have made me who I am.
I will forever walk in the shoes of a woman who has lost a child.

Author Unknown

For Better or Worse

Somewhere in the midst of this month was our third anniversary. With the events that have occurred over the past few weeks, I feel our marriage has grown by leaps and bounds and our vows are stronger now than the day we took them. For better or worse has a WHOLE new meaning to me.  Three years down, a lifetime to go. Happy Anniversary to my husband!
I love this excerpt from a Robert Frost poem. I feel it simply describes the bond of marriage.

The Master Speed

 Two such as you with such a master speed
Cannot be parted nor be swept away
From one another once you are agreed
That life is only life forevermore
Together wing to wing and oar to oar

And they say Facebook is a bad thing..

I couldn't disagree more. Thank you for every sweet comment and message of support and love. I hope you don't mind me sharing your kind words. It fills my heart to see and feel the love for our sweet Boston. What a blessing to be his mother!

Rebecca Shafer Eremia-I love you dearly. My thoughts and earnest prayers are with you and Cody. I am so very sorry you are going through this. Please know I will be praying for you in the coming days and weeks. I am here for you if there is anything I can do for you, big or small, please let me know. You are loved, dear Jessica.

 Jenna Kirkman Little-I know we haven't spoke in a while but I'm praying for ya'll and you let me know of you need anything at all !!!!!!! Anything !

 Patricia Robb-I have no words, I just wish I could hug you and cry with you. I have been in constant thought and prayer for you and will be for a very long time. When you feel like you can't go to God, I'll go to Him on your behalf, know this.
Love you!

 Meghan Sovell Ward-Jessica... I can't even begin to tell you how sorry I am. I haven't stopped thinking about y'all, I also haven't stopped praying. I know that no words will make anything any easier but I just wanted you to know that God is the only one who can see the big picture, don't lose faith that he has a plan for your family. If there is ANYTHING I can do please don't hesitate to ask. Keep your head up sweetheart.

 Erin Coats-Hey Jessica. Kelly just told me what happened and I know nothing I can say can make the pain go away, but I am truly sorry for your loss and I'm sending my prayers out to you and Cody.

 Lauren Braswell Bigham-Jessica, Just wanted you to know that my family and I are thinking about you & praying for you and your husband. Words cannot express our deepest sympathy.
Be strong, sweet lady.
Lauren

 Yvonne Wrenn Istvanko-I just heard about your loss and my heart is so heavy and sad for you. There aren't words to tell you how sorry I am. All I can do is pray that God will somehow get you through this pain and I KNOW he will. Your family and your many friends are all here for you too. Let me know if I can help you in any way at all.  Yvonne Istvanko

 Jamie Jaynes Fiveash- Jessica, I can't even begin to imagine how you all feel. I am so sorry. Please, please let me know if Jeremy and I can do something for you. I can cook supper or run errands; anything. I know right now you don't understand but God has a plan and just turn to Him and don't run away from Him. He will be your greatest comfort. Again PLEASE let me know if you need anything. Jamie

 Cari Lewis DeCavallas-Jessica and Cody,
You are near and dear to my family there in Southhaven, I just want you to know that my heart breaks a million times over for you. I, like many others have followed you on FB the last 9 months,.I cannot imagine your heavy heart. This is unbearable for everyone around you, I cannot imagine how you feel- just know this sweet girl; mourn however you need to, your husband and yourself, just mourn how you see fit. Know that you have a community that is here when you are ready. Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo,
Cari

Alexis Abram Baskin-I just wanted you to know you have been on my heart for the last couple of days. I heard the news from my brother. I know we don't talk, but I will be praying for your family. I pray that over time God will heal your heart.

 Gail Musick Booth-i love you both. jess, i'm here if you want to talk... biggest help I had during this time is talking to someone who has been there. Promise can call me anytime... we can talk or you can cry, or whatever it takes. it was definitely the hardest thing i have ever survived.. survive is really the only word for what is ahead. as long as you two continue to lean on each other and love and care for each other, this will bond you like nothing else. much love.

I Can See Clearly Now

that school is over! Thank goodness! Four graduate classes in one summer is hard, but it is extremely difficult when your eight and nine months pregnant. At last, all of the hoping, praying, crying, and just plain hard work has paid off. I wrapped up summer school with three A's and one B!  Only one year left until I get that master's! I know I can do this.

Thanks to my hubby, mom, fellow cohort crew and overall support team for getting me through this summer. If I wasn't about to pop out a baby, I would totally take ya'll dancing.

Monogram Madness

I don't know if I've mentioned how much I love personalized gifts, but monogrammed goodies hold a special place in my heart. Good thing Cody and I have such talented people in our lives who do do just that- sew and customize gifts. I've tried to keep up with Mrs. Donna's creations over the past year or so, and boy am I impressed with her skills! She is definitely going to be my go to person for all of Boston's monogramming. Check out some of her work- Sewing and Monogramming

 I had a suspicion that we would receive one or two special gifts from Mrs. Donna and Stacey, but I was overwhelmed with their generosity.Thank you, thank you, thank you for all of Boston's goodies. I wish I could pick a favorite, but I just can not. We are truly blessed to have you in our lives. I hope you don't mind me bragging on you ; )

Baby Bash Continued

Cody and I recently hosted a baby bash at our home. We are so thankful to celebrate the soon to be arrival of our son with our friends. I know our lives are about to turn upside down and it was nice to spend some quality time with the gang. We hope they know how much we love and appreciate them.

Thanks to all of our friends who joined in celebrating. Boston is one blessed baby to have such wonderful people in his life. (Not to mention Aunts and Uncles who give such special gifts- but that is another post)

Thirty-seven weeks down. I'm hoping Boston Bunyard makes his debut earlier than planned!

Peeking in on Pash

It's hard to believe that on August 1st, we will be celebrating Pashby's first birthday. Unbelievable! It is hard to consider the fact that a year has gone by since she first entered the world and began bringing joy and laughter to our lives. I am so grateful to be her Aunt Jess and I can not wait to see how she interacts with Boston. I know they will be the best of cousins. Hopefully Boston chooses to arrive on a date other than the first. If not, they may end up sharing a birthday! Oh goodness..

I still can't decide who she favors more- Kacey or Ashley! Either way, she is definitely one beautiful little girl.

New Beginnings

 "Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end." 
 It seems that it was only a few months ago that I started this blog to kick off the beginning of a new journey in my life- marriage. Yet time flies when your having fun and believe it or not, but Cody and I will be celebrating our third wedding anniversary in less than a month. Wow!  Has it been three years, really?
I woke up this morning with a feeling of anxiousness and excitement similar to how I felt around the time of my wedding. They are wonderful feelings, but with them comes the sad awakening that I am shutting one door and opening another. No longer will it be newlywed days with few responsibilities. Oh no. Soon Cody and I will be well into our marriage with BIGGER responsibilities- one being our son. No longer will I be a simple fourth grade teacher, but a full-time mom and graduate student. And no longer will it be a fly by the seat of our pants lifestyle, but more well (packed) and planned decisions. Although these facts seem a little overwhelming, I couldn't be more blessed and excited. So with the end of the bridal days and beginning of motherhood, I thought I would share some pictures. 

Baby Bash Recap

 Here are some fun pictures from our last shower. Cody and I sincerely thank you for joining us in celebrating the upcoming arrival of Boston. You guys remind us how blessed this baby is to be surrounded by wonderful people! Boston Cruz was definitely showered with gifts and goodies.